A New Book in my Life

There is a new book in my life:
Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close.
It's by the same author as Everything is Illuminated, one of my top 5 books. Ever. It is absolutely gorgeous. I loveloveitloveitloveit. I am entralled by the imagination of the author, in
creating these books. I find myself reading EL&IC very slowly, trying to make it last.
Actually, while I'm reading it, it goes by way too quickly. But once I put it down, I'm reluctant to start again because I know the next time I pick it up I'll get closer to the end. Of course, that is in conflict with my deep wish to find what happens next.
So, in short, I highly recommend it to anyone who's looking for a good book.
I find myself wanting to meet Oskar, the protagonist. I want my life to be touched by this extraordinary child. I want to meet Jonathan Safran Foer, the author whose brain spawned the books. And then, the very next thought, is that I want to deserve to meet them. I want to have something extraordinary to give back, so that their time with me isn't wasted. I have this thought a lot, that I need to be better, funnier, sharper, worthier. I try to take this as a good sign, that I am still looking to better myself, but all I keep seeing is a low self-esteem issue. Maybe if I keep reading more great books I'll get better.